That I am actually considering that job?
So I went to the job interview today, in pub/bar. And I thought I had to be bartender. But they were looking for persons who should be going around the clubs and asking men or women to come to that bar i would be working for. I should be introducing and chatting and drinking with them and the more they’d pay for their drinks the more money I would get.
And I am actually Imagining being wasted and slutty and living in nights and wrenching around in my pathetic life and sinking into numbness and nostalgia.
And I kinda would like to be that person. Careless and pathetic.
I am sick sometimes and I scare myself.